Happy Endings

Movies with happy endings shouldn't make me cry,
but they do.
I had a happy ending once, and the credits were supposed to roll,
but it turned out that my happy ending had its own ending,
and I was left with nothing
but an empty heart
and an empty house
as everything was taken away from me.

And this movie, my life,
is longer now than it should be,
and there's no indication
of an approaching intermission.
I keep watching everyone else's happy endings
while trying to find the silver lining
in the one that I have lost.

Built

I built this life from bits and pieces
on a foundation of packed dirt.
I can only hope it stands up
to the shit that rains down,
that its seams stay fast
so I can stay proud.

Because it may not be pretty,
exactly what I had planned,
what I had dreamed,
but I made it
with my own two hands.

This little shack of my life
is not what the little girl version of me dreamed of.
But I believe she would approve of what I've done
with the materials I've scavenged.

This little shack of my life
isn't much more than that,
but it's mine,
and I'll fight for it.
So have some respect,
and take off your shoes and your hat
if you're going to come in
and stay awhile.